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Blog closed.

2007-11-18T17:16:00.000+08:00

Blog closed.
Everyone please relink at: http://bythygrace.livejournal.com/
thank you!

Lottsa love, Paul

I would love to share my world with you

2007-11-09T02:41:00.000+08:00

My God is no ordinary God.
My God is my father, my 24/7 companion, my shepherd, my source of strength.....

Everytime when my Earthly father failed me, I ask God to let me forgive his wrongdoings. I will look to God for perfect example.

"If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!" [Matt 7:11]

When everyone turns their back on me, my God is always there for me. He is someone that I will want to share my joy& sorrows with. Even in my anger, He is someone I will want to whine to.

"Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you." [Psalm 9:10]

He is my shepherd. He lights up my path, led me not to astray with His staff.

[Psalm 23]

While man is limited, my God is BIG. In my life, school, ministry, relationships with friends/family, God never fails to give me that extra dosage of strength to carry on. To be able to complete my 5 years of school life is by His grace. (:

"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." [Phil 4:13]

Night-cycling at East Coast Park with NED3

"Ohana!Noone gets left behind." -- Tonight, I finally understand what it really means.

I agree with the girls that this group is very diverse as we all come from different school culture, family background, with different talents. But God has been good. Despite all the difference we have, we have established a very attractive& vibrant group in the unit. (:
Everyone plays a very vital role in this caregroup and we cannot do without anyone.

1 John 4:18 says, "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."

Jiayou peeps. (:

clean hands and pure heart

2007-10-31T21:04:00.000+08:00

Psalm 24:4

He who has clean hands and a pure heart,

who does not lift up his soul to an idol

or swear by what is false.

yes, clean handspureheartcleanhandspureheart...

&HAA, MEINU IS YUQIAN!
NED3, admit it~ wooo~ lol!

Olevel-maths

2007-10-30T13:59:00.000+08:00

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
[ Pslam 23:4 ]

Nothing matters anymore, 'cus I know You're in control.
You hold my future. (:
Thank You, Daddy.

P.S. I think Im having my puberty again. I've got manymanymanymany pimples now! :(

welcome for tiffany

2007-10-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

Who stole the chicken from the chicken pot?
Huitian stole the chicken from the chicken pot!

See, I caught her 'kope-ing' the chicken from the pot! Muahahhas.

Well, today's cg was a welcome for Tiffany.

Teeheheheeeee.

the best joke today: "..... you're my ex-shepherd!..."

random

2007-10-23T17:33:00.000+08:00

petrinna is a nice name.
pheobe is a nice name too.
We have come a long way. (:

Oh, I have a huge crush on AC!
HAAA!

random

2007-10-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

"..But perfect love drives out fear..."

God's love

2007-10-18T19:49:00.000+08:00

I caught the sunset today,
but it was from the heart.

I went for a jog.
I liked the breeze.
I love God's creation: the sky, the birds, the people.
For they just made me smile. (:

It's all about Enjoying.

Caregroup day!

2007-10-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

Try flour& expired tomato sauce as forfeit next time!
Bliss (michelle) commented, "I feel that my skin is smoother!"

Yeh, Xiuwen and I were the games masters! SO BEWARE~
muahahas. =S

Few days back, I learnt that...

People makes mistake, but when they repent& go back to God,
He forgives. And we can start anew.

Today, I learnt that...

As long as we do our best, the results doesn't really matter.
It's the spirit that is glorifying to God.

after Os wish list- 1

2007-10-16T20:21:00.000+08:00

After Os, I shall...

Stand under the rain with an umbrella
and take a photo infront of Esplanade. =D

random

2007-10-14T12:30:00.000+08:00

I like the clear blue sky.
I like the sun.
I like the air.
I like the weather.

Goodbye Zhonghua

2007-10-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

I ended my Zhonghua's life by:
1. Late for school: Having to sit outside General Office to copy a passage. And had my ez-link card being confiscated by Discipline Mistress and yet to return.
2. Being caught for coloured * and have to get it changed.

I hated Zhonghua's discipline. I hated Zhonghua's schedule.
But, Zhonghua has left me with great friends& great memories.

In the blink of an eye, five years of education in secondary school is coming to an end in a month's time. These five years were as if a roller coaster ride; friends come& go, escapism, blah. But I am very thankful that I left school with two great budds, namely, Valerie& Wenna.
Thank you for being in my life. You know I love you. <3

I will miss the time when we talked crap non-stop.
I will miss the time when we drew on each other's face.
I will miss the time when we gave ppl special nicknames. (eg, MAOMAO)
I will miss the time when we used to talk-back to teachers in lower sec.
I will miss the time when we did POQ together.
I will miss the time when we skipped choir& went for detention together.
I will miss the time when we sat outside 4* to look at eye-candy Deng*.
I will miss the time when we laughed together at people's misfortune. =/
I will miss the time when we baked/cooked together.

I will miss ALL the time when we shared great memorise.. (:

AND....

I will miss (not in order of merits) limin, barbara, lorrain, jasmine, huiling, peiru, yuhang, penshah, lewis, sharolyn, justina, gwen, lingyeow, hongfei, junliang(tsk), hanliang, junxiang, yong keat, zhenying, amanda, litong, yukai, boonbin, zhengyan, chestercher, darrentan, dengxiaoping*............

"My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it. To your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small.You never need to carry more then you can hold. And while you're out there getting where you're getting to. I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too. Yeah, this, is my wish. "

Daddy's encouragement: Grace

2007-10-11T19:20:00.001+08:00

Only when we begin to see grace in ourselves,
then we can start to see grace in others.

he said...
"Why are you trying so hard? I have never expect anything from you."

random

2007-10-10T13:56:00.000+08:00

Currently,

I like portuguese egg tarts.
I like duck rice.
I like traditional food courts.
I like rainy days.
I like windy days.
I like to travel.
I like night life.
I would like.... O level to be over, soon. (:

I feeeeeeeel like going to Pulau Ubin to watch sunset.

teacher sherry's sharing

2007-10-07T01:39:00.000+08:00

- says:
i love to study cos every knowledge leads to my knowing more of him

science and geography shows me His systematic nature
art and dnt shows me his creativity
social studies and history shows me his governance, his mercy
language shows me his desire to communicate
maths shows me his might (cos if i use maths to calculate the span of the whole universe, its only the span of His HAND)

- says:
when i went into my exam hall, i knew that no matter how the paper is, nothing is important, whats important is, my Papa God is with me

the beauty of God.

chem language

2007-10-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

teach me how to score a C6 for chem/bio in a week's time or so.
sigh.

Should i drop or not.

Turning 17

2007-10-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

A big thankyou to Jesus, my family, valerie, wennachong, liminfaith, steph, bbk, amanda, litong, chestercher, juliancher, chiaweilun, darylyeo, tiffany, rueylin, guihao, chantel, eileen, petrinna, bliss, hanliang, shuying, shawn, kaihui, junxiang, jiakang, gwen, sharolyn, lorrain, aylyn, yongkeat, zhengyan, zhengying, iris, jasonang, christina, weixiong, jayann, lestari, janejoy, mintystar, jianye, jovina, lingyeow, qingguo, yanling, kohjin, darren, rachelfong, huiling, yuhang, regina, prajitna, fongyung, shirley, xiaomeinu, yukai, zinam, hiutung, justina, penshah, clare, lynn, clarencechiang, linda, qinyi, yihui, clarence. Im sorry if i missed out anyone.

17th birthday was great. thank you for your loveS. (:

if ive shortchanged others by my act on impulse

2007-09-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

"..You are the Lord of all my dreams.."

Sometime, I wonder if I have made the wrong choice.
Was it an act of impulse or foolishness?
And who have I short-changed other than myself?
Lastly, are you short-changing yourself as well?

my parents love me alot.
ive gotten my gold necklace. (:
&i want to love you.

OH, DO YOU THINK I SHOULD CUT MY HAIR SHORT?!

education is by the Lord

2007-09-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

I recognized that education is from God, and, we should strive to do well in our studies for this is biblical. Since, God is the one who introduced education, we, Christians, will/can do even better in our studies 'cus God is God of all knowledge&wisdom.

I am my own opponent. I am my own enemy.
I had taken too many shortcuts in life.

&Im thinking if i should drop science. hmm,.

exam stress

2007-09-26T18:55:00.000+08:00

I jogged!
Exercise helps to relieve stress.
Exams nearer = more Exercise.

I supposed to get some rest& start studying. Apparently, I failed to do so. I spent my afternoon blog surfing. &Four hours of sleep a day is enough to kill my health. My nose is running. Woo~

I need more sleep& more time to mug. Roar.

neopets' food looks good. (:
&hellohellohello, get me to study. <3

child's education

2007-09-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

A child's upbringing is very important.
I wonder, what kind of parent will I be for my children.

Freddy once said, "I would give up everything to be a good father!"
I second that.

STRESSSSS

2007-09-23T15:35:00.000+08:00

math's a bitch.

random

2007-09-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

haa, the effect is so cute right! hoho.

i think other than retail therapy, taking photos with eileen seah is goodddddd. (=
i need to study, study, study, study, study, study, and, study.

service was good.
once again, he changed my perspective.

and, again. im gonna study study and studyy.

random

2007-09-21T18:13:00.000+08:00

I don't feel like studying anymore.
But, I've to. ):

36 is the taboo number.

horrible prelim results.

2007-09-19T19:20:00.000+08:00

34days, 4 hours, 39mins 34 seconds to The BIG 'O'
&im not happy.

Had a rough estimation for my prelim results, (at least) 31 for L1R5.
Great.

thank you for the very thoughtful exam kit. (:

IM for sale.

2007-09-17T17:43:00.000+08:00

Sales!

HELLO, I am selling Sim Yu Qian Debby Pauline for just a million dollar.
Please contact me if you want to buy her.

Olevel please end soon.

Church 16th anniversary day.

2007-09-16T12:07:00.000+08:00

hehh, i finally met her after 4 years. =)
she's vivien, my primary school best-friend. HAA.

she's maryam. she's my new friend. (:

this is eileen seah. supper at chompchomp.

I liked the energy from the Church Bangkok worship team.
I liked the praise&worship songs last night.
I like Pasir Ris.
I enjoyed the presence of Maryam.
I liked the fact that Michelle, Xiu Wen, Huimin and Desiree were there.
But, it would be much better if everyone in Grads grp went.

Im having second thoughts about going to NAFA.
hoho, i've got noooo school on monday! (:

you know i want you, jesus.

2007-09-12T20:56:00.000+08:00

"Didn't you like to be pursued?" she said.

Yes, I like to be pursued more than getting into a relationship. (I believe all girls will agree with me as well.) However, it dawned upon me... Isn't He the best pursuer? He clothed the earth with love new each day -- the sun, the manymany blessings, you, and me. (:

Gold is the new beauty. I want a gold cross necklace. HOHO! (:

study advertisment

2007-09-11T14:54:00.000+08:00

Buses available at Jln Batu: 12, 14, 196, 30, 158
(alight when you see the old building of La'selle SIA)

Yu Qian will love you if you would come to study with her.
Parkway, suntec, orchard, vivo, s'goon is fine with her as well.
So, what are you waiting for?
Dial 91596603 to book an appointment with her.

Love YuQian, study with YuQian. (:

i think enrique iglesias is hot. HAHA.

china&phone suicidal

2007-09-10T15:20:00.000+08:00

yuqian sings,

"one little two little three little china,

four little five little six little china,

seven little eight little nine little china,

all the china boys."

hehehh, 9 china boys in the bus with me this afternoon. Great.

&my phone is dying soon. she tried to drown herself last night.

Talking on, overnight study with HUling

2007-09-09T12:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was madness.

We studied from 10+ pm to 6am.
Completed four chapters of bio each.
Home, and woke up at 11.30am.

Today is Love.

one more step from insanity.

2007-09-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

I need money; I need retail therepy!

I'm one step away from insanity.

I haven't study for bio/chem when the exams is monday&wednesday respectively.

I am so so so so dead.

and I am so so so stressed.

dial 91596603 if you think you're a good entertainer.

bye, im off to study at mac with huiling.

random

2007-09-04T19:41:00.000+08:00

I ran 2km todayyyyyyy~! *hops around

I wanted tausuan but they got no more tausuan.
I wanted orhbibeh but they got no orhbibeh, too.
They got chengteng, sweetpotatoes, red/green bean soup..
But I only want TAUSUAN!
Then, I compromised.
I got myself a Durian Icekang. (:

daddy, i need that extra dosage of strength.
and love, and patience.

i want to study post it.

2007-09-02T21:39:00.000+08:00

i wonder,
if i matter to you?

Good food, good day.

2007-09-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

Look, I am so dark now. =(

Friday, went swimming with wenna&valho.

Then, we went to Old Airport Road for dinner.

they are, (from left to right) chaokueytiao, lormee, yongtaufoo, oyster egg, BBQ chicken&rojak.
they are veryveryveryyyyyy nice, okay! hohoho.

i drained myself dry,

as to allow more of you.

~~onions.~~

Steph's hse warming

2007-08-26T11:13:00.000+08:00

Steph's house-warming party with LMK. =)

hello, we're LaMoKia (lingmongkia)
(from left to right:) wenna, limin, me, steph& valerie ho.
the wordings&heart are gifts from us.

we're smoking. HAA. And, i look like some drug addict there. thanks to my eyebags. =(

our act cute pictures. wenna, you the best man.. LOL!

left pic, oneTOfive act cute pose. see the hair and the expression.
right pic, the super gone one.
steph with barneyCD, wenna&limin power ranger CD and pose, valerie paranoid kid, and, im the suaku pok with NAFA bag. LOL.

smelly xiaogou! lol. (okayla, she's not smelly.)

complexsimplicity.

crappster&lingmokia. <3>

it is your love, it is your goodness,

it is your kindness&compassion,

that fills me up inside.

balding.

2007-08-24T19:04:00.000+08:00

My friends said I'm balding.
My friends said they're balding.
Everyone's balding.
Balding; a new way to wear your hair. =)

today is fruit cake day,
tmr is LMK's day. <3

the world is sick

2007-08-20T19:36:00.000+08:00

The world is sick.

I think there were at least fifty cockroahes at my house's void deck when I came home.
I think there are more ~~pimple~~ on my forehead.
I realise.. Zhonghua produces sick people. (eg, skinnyhandsome..)
I realise my friends are sick. (you'll understand if you were to know them well enough.)
My internet explorer cannot open http://www.photobucket.com/
I have been feeding myself with milk, and fruits, and recently constipation medicine.
64 more days to O level makes me abit crazy.
I realise hard work doesn't really pay off. Worked my ass out, yet the results don't show it.
I think I am stress.
I developed a love for detective; murdering stories.
We are facing global warming.
I've got a new perspective towards BGR. Guys are only nice when they court you.
But, i like clarence. small clarence.
I wanna sleep, but I refuse to. I haven't done a decent work.
I think the world is painted in red.
I think the world is not round, it's square.
I think I need to burn midnight oil for few weeks to finish revision.
I think, I think I m not thinking right.

Actually, I am sick.
In my mind.

Hope run '07

2007-08-19T16:15:00.000+08:00

clarence is love!

obedience

2007-08-18T19:08:00.000+08:00

'But Samuel replied:
"Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices
as much as in obeying the voice of the LORD ?
To obey is better than sacrifice,
and to heed is better than the fat of rams

For rebellion is like the sin of divination,

and arrogance like the evil of idolatry. '

[1 sam 15:22-23a]

obedience is the key.

he asked, "are you willing to surrender your emotions and feelings?"

2007-08-15T19:18:00.000+08:00

im mentally unsound
emotionally unstable as well.
shittttt

Last lap.

2007-08-15T10:26:00.000+08:00

(from 881)

I need a break, not to escape, but to prepare myself for more studying.
I won't raise the white flag, I am already in the last lap.

YUQIAN, 加油！

O level mid year chinese results.

2007-08-13T19:04:00.000+08:00

goodbye C5,
welcome A2.

no, I didn't get an A2 for my chinese, I've got an C5 instead.
thank you, fish. i wouldn't have stomach flu on that day without you. =(
but Im okay now.
sakae helps alot.
Prelims will be a good one, i promise. (:
that's only if Daddy were to give me some grace. I will give my best.

Out with eileen Seah at Bugis.

2007-08-10T23:10:00.000+08:00

Out with Eileen Seah today.

Bugis's Seoul Garden.

&both of us agreed that Seoul Garden improved alot in their quality of food. (:

and introducing to you...
Rose Juliet from TCC. (its a pretty drink with a pretty name. HAHA! )

next up...
DebbyPauline& EileenSeah. *evil laughters.

cam-whoring.

trying out the Frames in Sony Ericsson's phone.

one, two, but failed to capture 3. LOL.

but spastic-ness won over.

first pic, is back to year 1960.
second pic, is back to the Old England. (eileen went: slowly~)

Eileen says, "i caught you in your aunty-ness."

hello, it's time to mug.

881 by Royston tan.

2007-08-09T22:34:00.000+08:00

Listening to: I don't wanna miss a thing by Aerosmith.

Happy Birthday Singapore! (:

Time is passing by so quickly that I am already in August! Two more months to O level, great. National Day is yet another holiday; a perfect excuse for me to stop studying and relax.
And yes, I am.

I finally watched a decent movie after a long, long time. My last movie was actually "Over the Hedge" in May' 06, i think. Haa. Anyway, I watched 881 by Royston Tan. I think it was good but if I were to rate, it will only be a four-fifth. Hmm, you gotta watch it yourself though. I don't mind watching a second time if anyone of ya is interested. HAHA. (:

&I adore guys that wear white skinnies. <3<3

ajisen ramenn on national day's eve.

2007-08-08T17:33:00.000+08:00

Ajisen Ramen after ~~Crosscountry~~ National Day's celebration with WennaChong,ValerieHo and JustinaMelina. *smile.

WennaChong's Volcano Ramen.
It's veryveryveryvery spicy& she still added moreeee chilli. (second pic)

ValerieHo's Seafood Ramen.

JustinaMelina's Crayfish Ramen.
(my all-time favourite! (: )

DebbyPauline's Nan-Katsu Ramen.

our add-ons: Soft-shell crab. and this is.. Baby Octopus.

Look, it's so.... juicy, tender and....

BIG. (: ...

BIGGERRR ~

谁说龙虾大过小女孩？八角鱼和软骨克螃蟹也大过小女孩！(:

&finally we're able to put our Biology knowledge into good use;bisecting the Octopus. (:

lastly, 八角鱼的爱情故事。

(the love story of the baby octopus.)

two more weeks to prelim. where's the time to study?! oh damnit.

the heart sang, I could sing of your love forever.

2007-08-04T16:10:00.000+08:00

banana pie.
this is from katong shopping center (B1), and its heavenly~
try it! (:

Today, i heard my heart sang, "I could sing of Your love forever."
Oh, how it longs for Him.

time don't heal, Jesus do

2007-08-03T10:33:00.000+08:00

"Time don't heal, Jesus heal." she says.

i totally agree with it.

Time will just numb a person from the pain,
but Jesus go right into the root issue and resolve it.
Daddy, heal me.

Racial Harmony.

2007-07-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

Racial Harmony. HAA, i know it's abit late. =/

this is 4/5 LMK.
Eurasian, Indian, Malay& Chinese. (:

lol, he's Teo Yu Hang.
apparently, the most handsome guy in Zhss.

LewisB and Valerie ho.
for once, we found LewisB very hot. HAHA.

Justina and Valerie.
Justina is cute, okay! (:
(and val, you're always pretty, so don't worry.)

this is the mother-and-son picture. Swee.

kohjunxiang. (:

heehh, Wenna's scandalous ahh. =/
and that boy is cute. (:

wenna, yukai and I.
haa, i looked ugly, so ><>

/washed my hands off,

'cus he likes to play with clay.

miss tan.

2007-07-25T21:27:00.000+08:00
she asked, "how are you doing spiritually?"
and I was taken aback at once.

There were lots of thoughts running in my head, but I just can't seem to put them into words.
Guilt still haunts me like never. I can't seem to go back or move on with life.

I know how much it hurts, but I can feel it no more.
Let go is the easiest, and the hardest way.

P.S. pleasepleasepleasee study hard for your Nlevel.

somethings

2007-07-22T13:10:00.000+08:00
how possible is it to start all over again?
it's only a matter of time.

-

give me a reason to stay.
-
try not to sleep for 24 hours,
see how shiok it will be?

very shiok. (:

study smart.

2007-07-16T17:55:00.000+08:00
im dumb.

P.S. won't be online for a period of time.i needa study.

on eating munchy donuts

2007-07-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

strawberry donut.

ON EATING MUNCHY DONUTS.

1. Heat up the donuts with a microwave.

2. Take out the donuts from the microwave.

3. Eat it while it's hot.

Comments: SHIOK. (:

Overnight study with MO-LI-HUA-XIE. I'll tell you if it's effective. (:

-

2007-07-13T23:10:00.000+08:00
sometimes somethings somehow someday someone somewhere.

-

2007-07-12T21:38:00.000+08:00
sweet-talk kills.
say "NO" to sweet talk.

counting down.

2007-07-10T00:43:00.000+08:00
less than four months,
and i will bid zhonghua goodbye.

wake me up when Olevel ends. (:

i ran from Home*

2007-07-07T11:59:00.000+08:00

weakstrong; bittersweet; lovehate; tearsmile; livedie

she wears a mask, and hides behind her shadow.
everything's a lie. it's all deception.
bring me back to life.

everybody have their up and down times, and I am having my mine now.
I seek for everyone's understanding, and don't question me about anything.
I just need some time off.

/im sorry, Dad.
I ran away from Home today.

im not happy post.

2007-07-06T20:28:00.000+08:00
can you hear the scream from within?

it's too much for me to cope.
i'm not happy.

"if you give me one chance to tell you how i was feeling. i would sing to you and tell you, i won't live my life without you.
if you give me one chance to tell you how i was feeling. i would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know i'd never let you go."

after mock prelim

2007-07-04T22:08:00.000+08:00
reality has hit me real hard.
it's time to study.

God is grace.

2007-07-02T19:58:00.001+08:00

she says, "I believe in grace. Therefore, one day, if my husband were to commit adultery, but repent and come back to me, I'll forgive him."

In fact, I am very much like the one who had just commited the adultery.
Yet, he forgives.

Clarke Quay with Eileen and Chantel.

2007-07-01T04:45:00.000+08:00

JOKE OF THE DAY. (:

a love-love relationship.

they are people who love me for me. people that allow me to be who i am. people who i can just chill by the roadside with. people whom i just so love. (:

fondue with chantel = good shitting session. =)

random. qilin's b'dae.

2007-06-28T20:01:00.000+08:00
Certain smells bring back certain memories.

today is your birthday.
happy birthday love.
(ive alot more to say to you. allow me to.)

I like rainy days. Especially those at 6-7pm.
I like the dark clouds, and the droplets of rain.
And the scene,
where people are carrying umbrella, or
some just running for shelter.

sunrise

2007-06-27T22:36:00.001+08:00
someday in these few weeks, i will catch the sunrise.

He said, "My grace is sufficient for you."

2007-06-27T20:07:00.000+08:00

"You love me for who I am, and not what I think I ought to be.
You are the beauty and I am the beast.
But You said, 'My grace is sufficient for you,' "

Many months back, He gave me the word, 'Grace'.
And many months later, I realise how far His grace has brought me to.
Your grace is made sufficient for me, and that's why I love you.
Thank you. (:

steamboat& clarke quay.

2007-06-23T20:26:00.000+08:00
cam-whoring with wenna& steph on 20june07.
(mind you, that's only 23% of the pictures we took!)

Clarke Quay is so beautiful. (:

a new beginning

2007-06-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

YNED3
YNED3
YNED3'S CLs.

glory to glory.

First Frontier

2007-06-15T15:17:00.000+08:00
not some oh-i-am-so-high emotions.
not some oh-i-am-sooo-convicted-now feeling.
just a, i-want-to-do-it, i-need-to-do-it, b'cus the Word says so.

i think it's good too. at least, that's something that won't fade away after much discouragements.
Yned3 rocks anyway.

lastly, house toilet is still the best. (:
goodbye.

surrender to Him my desires

2007-06-10T10:55:00.000+08:00

"..You're the God of all my dreams,
I follow you in everything..."

all my dreams&wants&desires, i'll give it to you.
i learn to give up. to surrender. to yield.

billy bomber

2007-06-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

fish&chips

original-65/75/85?

wenna rocks. HEHEEE.
I AM YOUR BAD FRIEND! :)

I LOVE YNEE1.

2007-06-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

this is YNEE in June'06 Camp
this is YNEE1 in Sept'06 -- Church anniversary at Expo
this is YNEE in Oct'06 -- SOS meeting
this is YNEE1 in Nov'06 -- YJ farewell
this is YNEE in Dec'06 Camp -- Mixmatch
YNEE1 mismatch with Pastor David in Dec'06
YNEE1's last picture. 26May'07
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.
.
.
went to "play pool" for huiying's recording
grads and jc group first combine mcg --BBQ at ECP.
cam whoring.

hahaa, i licked huiying!
take a closer look at the object jalea's holding.
ugly picture. but you can't get a second time.
christmas party at Katong's hongkong cafe.
first caregroup of the year. with a big bang, good game, shioking forfeits.

no other better pictures. NEE1's valentines' cg.

can't remember what occasion. march hols? LOL.
steamboat at marina bay.

grads farewell.

(Eileen seah, please don't kill me when you saw the pictures above. =/ )
Sentosa trip. Celebrated shiokping's birthday as well.

(EILEEN SEAH, you took it yourself, i help you post it online. BLEAHHS)
the ambi pur story.

hahaa, cam whoring with jalea at istana park. look at her long neck, ghostly look, big nostrils (mine oso big! haha) and act cute look. heeehh.

vivo city with eileen seah during my school's good-Olevel-ccaachievement-day.

cam whoring after lunch at Le Meridean.

that's why i love YNEE1.
where friendships are built.

you people rocks BIG TIME. <3>
Farewell.

diarrhoea sucks.

2007-06-01T18:56:00.001+08:00
i rock.
cus i missed the farewell cg. =(
all thanks to my stomach. ><

1 june 07
i finally made zhonghua my second home.

group restructuring.

2007-05-22T20:27:00.000+08:00
I think i will miss you.

PICTURES PICTURES!

2007-05-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

cam whoring with eileenSEAH. (:

Chantel, Eileen and I (and hsiaoen><)

Eileen, me and Jalea acting cute. (:

shiokping and i.

justina jayann. (:

FOODDDDDDD

2007-05-18T22:24:00.001+08:00
Eating makes me happy. Food is my love. Feed me with more food, helps me to release stress. And simyuqiandebbypauline will lovelovelove you. ((((:

the very nice egg tarts from Shiok Ping. (:

the very nice Secret Recipe's Strawberry Cheesecake from Jason Ang. (:

thankyouuuuuuuuuuuuu. =)

Tuesday. Off-day for good O level results. (:

2007-05-15T19:58:00.000+08:00

at HEI SE HUI.
.
.
.

+ 3 chaosiewbao + 1 pot of tea = $19.90. (50% lunch promotion from 2.30-6pm)

Going out with Eileen Seah is always fellowship& FEIlowship. Not to forget the Salad buffet we had ealier on. My tummy is getting bigger laaa. ><

And, yuqian can't fit into t-shirt, she's got a shoulder too broad to fit into any normal t-shirt.
boo hoo hoo.

ANDand, yuqian got a handsome tutor. MUAHAHHAS. ((:

2007-05-14T20:38:00.000+08:00
Deng Xiao Ping.
Mao Ze Dong.
Chiang Kai Shiek.

Do you know Deng Xiao Ping is Mao Ze Dong's brother?
Do you know Deng Xiao Ping is very well-liked by all?
Do you know Mao Ze Dong's fans club is in 5N1'07?
Do you know Chiang Kai Shiek is cute?

2007-05-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

Took a break from the hectic workload, and did some shopping with jason ang.
After steamboat at grandma house, we went to mustafa for shopping. COOL. the place was filled with my Loves. The things there are cheap. And i bought 3 (really) tight-fit fila tops at $30. WOohoo~

Sunday best. I found my second love -- Marina Square. The place is just, so, cool. (: I bought my Papillio there.

And the carpark is very cool too, so cool that jason ang cannot find his car. >< LOL.

Bought my aunty purse from Parkway. HOHO!

And lastly, Secret Receipe Chocolate Banana cake at Siglap. (:

It's so good to have a friend that drives.
JASON ANG, YOU ROCK. (:

2007-05-06T19:19:00.000+08:00
EXAMS FEVER.

/latenight& durians killed my health.

talking about you..

2007-05-01T13:25:00.001+08:00
unless the root issue is solved,
everything will remain unchanged.

emoemo.

2007-04-30T11:59:00.000+08:00
run ruN rUN RUN.

running.just.to.escape.
hi escapism.

and so he said, "hello."

you still love me

2007-04-29T11:06:00.000+08:00
When I rebel,
you still love me.
When I run away,
you still love me.
When mind& heart no longer go together,
you still love me.
Even when my world falls,
you still love me.

Talking about BGR..

2007-04-27T16:53:00.000+08:00
Once is enough,
there won't be a second time.

friends.

2007-04-21T20:46:00.000+08:00
FRIENDS is still the best medicine for sorrows.

Ugliness of human being

2007-04-15T18:42:00.000+08:00

Into the mirror,
the beast stares.

With broken heart,
yet, he says, "I am beautiful,"

"Never. And you know why," it says.

lies of satan manifest our ugliness.

look inside me.

2007-04-14T11:58:00.000+08:00

In this room, all white,
I stood, naked.
Look inside me,
and know my heartbeat.
Fill me up,
with nothing but your presence.

/so much for loving you.

you guide me through.

2007-04-09T19:53:00.000+08:00
Psalm 139: 1 -10

O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.
You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

/teach me, how can i run away from You? Never.

Struggling with sins. Romans 7:19

2007-04-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

"For what I do is not the good I want to do;
no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing."
Romans 7:19

the world says, "Go for it!"
the word says, "For I've a plan for you..."

my heart says, "I'm so touched."
my mind says, "He's not ready yet."

my eyes says, "He's so charming."
my mouth says, "He is not the right one for me."

the devil says, "Give it a try."
the angel says, "Don't even try."

/when i overcome, i overcome.

music

2007-04-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

Mr Charismatic (Daniel Leow) says,
"worldly musicians can only bring out their emotions and their skills.. but Christian musicians can bring out their emotions, skills and the spirit of God."

2007-03-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

"..when minute turns to days and years
when mountain falls, i'd still be here
holding you until the day i die.."
-Inside Your Heaven, Carrie Underwood

Time flies. Soon and very soon, people will be going away, and more people will be coming in. Goodbyes, Welcome, Changes, Growth... It will happen so quickly that I might just get outta breath and just.. die.

JC life is really fast. We just bid goodbyes to the YJ girls few months ago, welcomed the grads group and now, we're saying goodbyes to them. I hate goodbyes, though I know it for our own good. There's mixed feelings in me. Probably you can prepare a pail to collect my tears for the farewell party, huh.

Love never fails.

2007-03-15T10:50:00.000+08:00

"... I am reaching for Your heart,
~~You~~ I hold my your life in ~~Your~~ my hands.."

How many times have you tried reaching into my heart yet failed to grab hold of it? How many times have I turned away from you despite of Your love for me?

You have my heart once again.

Changes.

2007-03-13T23:36:00.000+08:00
Changes. Changes. Changes.
Everything seems to be changing.
But the principle remains.

Was talking to a sister about the changes in Hope in these few years, how things had changed; the culture, the people,... Think about it, I quite miss the past. I thank God for those friendships I have in church that actually allows me to share deeply.

Sometimes, I wish you were here.

Pride comes before a fall.

2007-03-05T20:57:00.000+08:00
A new conviction in my heart: Humility.

Pauline is embaking on a Pauline-wants-to-be-more-humble project.
In short, Pauline wants to be more humble.
Remind me if you ever sense pride in me. If I am sarcastic, remind me too. (:
Pauline will be very grateful to you.
Thankyou.

"He mocks proud mockers but gives grace to the humble." Proverbs3:34

"Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love." Eph 4:2

"But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble." James 4:6

"Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up." James 4:10

End of emo rule.

2007-03-02T22:47:00.000+08:00
Escapism is my secret lover
BUT
It's inside everyone.

End of emo rule.
Yes, end of emo rule.

Pauline wants to go school everyday in the month of March,
except 23March.

2007-02-26T18:54:00.001+08:00
ESCAPISM, my secret lover.

reaching for you.

2007-02-25T16:14:00.000+08:00

"I stand here before you
in wide-opened wonder amazed
at the glory of You
the power of heaven
revealing Your purpose in me
as I am reaching for You..."

my weakness, His strength

2007-02-23T21:18:00.000+08:00
10 Moses said to the LORD, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."

11 The LORD said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? 12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."

[Exodus 4:10-12]

I made these kinda prayers many times to God, saying.. "Lord, i can't...", "Lord, I'm not good enough..", "Lord, why me?" I do feel inadequate many times in life -- my studies, my friends, my sheep, myself. But God has traded my inadequacy with His love. He is with me. All things are possible in Him.

'cus He is God.

Grace

2007-02-20T01:30:00.000+08:00
I think this year's new year has bonded our family together. I've made the effort to spend time with my "new-year-cousin" and "new-year-aunties". I think Pastor Jeff's "new year sermon" helped alot. I shall let the pictures do the talking before I con'd to share more. (:

this was taken on Saturday during our reunion dinner.
she is my cousin, jingxuan, and zekai. my uncle's children.

CHU YI.

my dad. i look like him right! ><

this is my aunty. my mother's sister.

her family.. (from left to right) zijie,10, uncle raymond, aunty, and weijie,4.

this is my grandpa. he is pure chinese okay! this probably is my first and last photo with him.

okay, this is my sister. beatrice, 19. heeee.

this should be my cousin.. he is nigel. cute right! *grins

CHU ER.
(jason ang came to bainian at my grandma's house)

he is my mum's god-son, my brother, and my bestie. HAHA.
(in case you're wondering why he's my mum's god-son, take a closer look. we look alike!)

his ugly pic. hahaa! there's worse ones but i shall be kind and not show it to others. hahaha.

he's too boreddd.

he's still boredddd..

we're too bored. LOL.

Grace.
I think God has been really gracious to my family and me.
My father's sister and husband came to know God recently.
My father's mother is going to church soon.
My cousin (zijie) is starting to read the bible and believe in God.
My aunt said: I think xxx should go to church, hopefully he can get better after that.
My father is openly sharing Christ to everyone.
at the same time... God is also very tai kan de qi us..
My grandpa got cancer. Last stage.
My cousin (weijie) is suspected to have leukemia.
My father's mother is recovering from stroke.
All this things somehow led us back to God. Where can I seek help from? Who is there to help me? Where is the God that can help me?
well.. God is testing our faith. But, I want to believe God. After all these, one by one, they will come to know God.
Amen.

Betrayer. Revival.

2007-02-17T00:38:00.000+08:00
The worship went...

" ...I love you.. I love you.. I love you..
and my heart will follow wholly after you..."

And.. the word: Betrayer came into my mind.

so much for "loving" Him, when I had been stabbing Him at His back time and again sub-consciously.

I repent for not loving Your people wholeheartedly, I repent for the thought of giving You up. I repent for my rebellion, my self-reliance prideful heart. I repent, Lord.

I know God is a loving God and thus He will forgive. He do not want me to remain this way. And I just need to repent and move on.

2nd word from God: revival.

I need to have a revival. I need to revive my own spiritual life.

/and when He sings.. It will be...
"..I love you I love you I love you
and my grace will follow wholly after you.."

Valentine Day 07

2007-02-14T23:34:00.000+08:00
This is my fifth valentines' in zhonghua, and it will be my last one. (:
This year is very special as I spent it with my loved ones -- my caregroup and friends!

I am very thankful for the love you people have showered on me.

thankyou guihao for your very sincere sms,
thankyou eileen for the quality time,
thankyou yanyu for the veryvery nice sweet,
thankyou limin/hsiaoen/grace/chantel for the chocolate,
thankyou jalea for the heart-shaped encouragement card,
thankyou sheep teoh for the sunflower,
thankyou sheep lee for the mark&spencer thgy,
thankyou valerie for the catus,
thankyou simin for the D.I.Y cup,
thankyou zai'er for the keychain,
thankyou steph for the i-have-yet-seen-it-D.I.Y-item,
thankyou wenna/jiakang for the rose,
thankyou justina for the chocolate thgy,
thankyou yuhang for the necklace,
thankyou jason for the rose& "He chose the nails" book,
and
thankyou God for God. (:

I had a wonderful valentines' day today.
Chantel, xin ku le! <3<3

he chose the nails.... part 2?

2007-02-07T21:54:00.000+08:00
Yay! My computer is working again! And, since it has been months since I use this computer, some of the things really bring back memories. I found the "He chose the nails" video in the Video folder and my heart is filled with thanksgiving.

This took place... almost two years ago.. when we were still secondary three... when jason was still in youth..when.. ChungCheng was in their "peak" period...

this was the invitation card...

this was the drama rehearsal..

when petts practicing the song -- because of love after service..

when petts and jason practicing at my house..

Still remember, it was at Coasta Sand East Coast chalet that day. There were about.. 10 visitors? (girls and guys.) Remember that I still rebuked them before the visitors came.. for their restless-ness.. (that's one of my mistakes as i've learnt on the way.) Hahaaa.

Think back... I am thankful for their hard work. (Yes, chialing, shern, jolene, bryan, jason, diqiang,...) and because of all of your hard work... Catherine, Shi Wei, and Amanda came to know Christ.. and still with us now. (:

probably our last cchs photo...
haaa. that's the bigger oneee. see OUR funny expression! hahaa.

God, thank you for blessing me such a great team in my earlier days in church.. it'll certainly better.. for myself. and them (:

thank you chungcheng. (: